Confusion

She talked to one of the directors so may be she gets the job back ...and she did :)

We met after lunch decided to go for a coffee to talk things over, she looked devastated ...she was in pain I wasn't sure if it was the right idea to ask her anything cause it might have hurt her much more. She started talking as we sat for a coffee...

Went to Germany to meet my boyfriend (Josu) before heading back to Japan with him...I went to his apartment .. knocked on the door... he opened the door  wearing just a towel around his waist .. he was surprised to see me ..he knew I was coming ....so why that face?. I walked in, to my horror, I found a naked girl in bed half asleep....I couldn't speak ...I just froze at the sight of her there.

 ...She asked him who I was as tears ran  down my face.  The girl just grabbed her cloths as she realised what was going on she looked embarrassed and angry!. She walked pass by me whispered "I'm sorry" slapped Josu ..and vanished!

Josu sat on the edge of the bed with his elbows on his knees and head down....he started to talk really softly and with a broken voice.
-We have been apart from each other for such a long while ...I swear this was the first time happening .....It never happened before!
-That's not the point I replied!
-Tell me! Didn't you dated some other guy while you where away? is it possible? tell me ?  I felt something  was wrong as I visited you two months ago..

What I was suppose to say? If ...some guy did't walk in the restaurant that night we could have ended up doing the same...
So I just said nothing ....just cried. He stood up and wrapped his arms round me..I pushed him and left....even If I had nowhere to stay ...


Here I am again ...I could't go back home my mother would have suffered to much to this news!

I don't know what to do Hotei....I need time to think ....and I know this is the place I want to be.....

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