Healing

To be alone or to be not!

There were times when I thought it was better to be alone, others perhaps I needed company  just some one to share the troubles of the day a secret an idea..having time alone it was good...a walk in a park or by the sea just me and my self. But my memories still haunted me there was to much that reminded  me of Ta Chan, and the idea to make the same mistake with Cassidy was to much to take. But why call it a mistake? "Love" is not a mistake, it is an emotion so powerful that takes over your body, mind and soul ...  or  the respect we feel for some one is a gigantic emotion. And me I learnt it all first hand my mind was overwhelmed by these feelings and emotions! One thing was for sure is that I needed time, only time and a strong will "wanting" could have helped me!.

Foot prints on the sand

Here....me duelling my soul! No matter what or how much we try  every action we make leaves a mark, a mark big or small some deep and some not so deep. You can see life like a blank canvas and your the painter that is putting colour onto the  blank sheet. I see it like walking on the sand every footstep leaves a mark it can be an easy mark as the sand is soft and cool, some other times the sand is hot so we walk fast and we do mistakes and the path is not so clear. Other times it is left to be erased by the waters as it washes away with every wave. I made mistakes in my life...so to many...do I wish to go back and change those moments, those "mistakes", I'm tempted to say yes, I wish it could be so easy, but lets say we can do that! will that stop us from doing other mistakes? I learnt from the mistakes I made I was thought how to be stronger so I could move on " learning from your mistakes" that is what makes us humans "different" being able to turn even when you think your on the edge! Look back on the foot prints you left during this journey and learn from them.....

Washing away 

Finding your self is an important step in our lives, it can take time "years" I'm still finding my self as I change from day to day. Cleansing your self is important....I many times put my self in question...I answer the question in the most "naked" way...pure...as honest I can be...... cause if we can't be  honest with our selves we can be honest to no one! 

"the first love of all it starts with our selves to be able to love our selves"  If you don't love your own self you must find your way and start healing! 

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