"Jasmine"

Cassidy and me sat on a rocky beach looking to the lights far away across the waters, we talked and kissed exchanged hugs and whispered sweet nothings. Reached for her hand in the darkness, kissed her again, got closer, it was getting pretty chilly now ... planed for a future, our future. We planed for a bright dawn a new life...nothing had or could stop us...

....We had a dream....we wished to go on a trip....a long holiday..but what with all the expenses of the apartment?....what if the unthinkable happened?......  



Kissed her again...over and over....made love under the starry sky ....but me ....me I feared. I could not forget that a few weeks ago I felt lost and helpless.  I could not risk it again...I don't want to risk it....why I keep calling it a risk? its not a risk its a choice....or its not?. Although I would have loved to have children it was not the right moment to....and I fear I could not control my self. Young and greedy for more...we could not just say no.....

Days passed and weeks to....now my paranoia was becoming uncontrolled, "we cant afford to take any chances" I used to say!.This was breaking us slowly from the inside...I had no one to ask and that I could trust enough to talk about my intimate life..unless .....Jessica!. She knew me since I was 17 and she knew all about me!. Jessica smiled to me when I told her the latest happenings ... sat down on a chair next to me and reached for her bag. "here" She said "This is what I use!, these will sure put your mind at rest dear"....."I know your fears....I been there....I've done that.........I only  wish I had the guts to talk to someone, like you did now when I was your age love" she said while smiling at me. Placed the tablet wrapper in my pocket and back to work I went...

The next day went to Cassidy's and told her that I think Jessica had found a solution for us...It might sound a bit to drastic but it was the best ting to do back then. And that is what happened...secretly we made an appointment in a clinic and had the doctor prescribe contraceptive pills...and for months we both had our minds at rest.....

Now we could plan...plan a future... we were young we still had a whole life ahead of us....and as long we had love....noting could stand in our way.... 

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