Just Like A Pill...

Weather is dull and by 5pm the sun hits the horizon...its the only reason why I don't like winter, for the rest I love it! I love the cold and I love the rain (and not to mention that while driving to work I just adore to look at the sunset! the sunset in winter over here is something to take your breath away!!). The temperature dropped by a a lot the past couple of days, its funny just 2 weeks ago people where still swimming at a lovely 25(deg) and now we are wearing our winter jackets!. But this is not what I want to talk about...    
This morning had an early start again , this week have been hectic!, lot was going on and I struggled to get most of the stuff out of the way!. Plus a little bad luck striked again this week, had  a car accident luckily not much harm was done, my foot pooped again so I'm walking with a limp yet again....and GRRRRR!! not to mention work!! and Mr Crabs and his damn NUTS!!!. 

Breath in breath out....
Had no time for myself this week, but today...had to drop my car for a service so I adventured myself in the "cold" ...13(deg) yeah for me... that is cold! well ended up with no car for a few hours so here I am grabbing a cup of piping hot tea wearing my red woolly socks sharing some thoughts before continuing my bag packing.

 I was not looking forward for this 2 day retreat, but now, after all the shit that happened this week I gladly will escape for 2 days! I'm just hoping that the sea is not rough as I like my ferry trips to be quite smooth!. Hopefully will have some rest even though I plan early escapes to catch the sunrise in the amazing setting that our neighbour  island is proudly known for, and hopefully be able to snap a few pictures too!.

 To be honest with you...these past days I had some stuff going on my mind...a few days ago hummm Sunday to be precise, I had yet an other invitation, I promptly said "No!" and made a big effort to end up the conversation as quickly as possible!. But at the back of my mind I just can't get the thought out of my head. And when I do,  something comes up and remind me of it, perhaps I'm a little paranoid, may be I am yes a little. 
Since then I tried to avoid... although my mind is set on an automatic reply that promptly comes out before I even think  or had the time to process what the question was. Although I say No...I still feel, and I still hope that someday even if for one day, we'll meet...

                                                                                                                            picture Lisboa

"Its funny when you are distant from something or someone, 

the more you need it, the more you want it..."

                                                                

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Yesterday finished work quite late as it was pretty busy again and since Mr Crabs still have found no replacement for the position,  we are still just 2 working in the bloody kitchen! (sorry  for my moment of rage relief).  

 I have this feeling inside me, somehow feels like a little sadness, or perhaps a nostalgic feeling of a few months ago... that makes me stop, and many times smile, especially when hearing a song while at work...and I say my now famous quote at work "will the sun rise today on the other side of the world?!". Yesterday I saw a ray of light, so it might rise, even if for a day..I be happy to see a familiar smile one of these days. 

                                Was browsing in my G-mail and found this :)

                                                                                   Taken April this year...

                                   after a long night chatting till the sun was rising...

                                                           then left to take this picture.... 

"some how it feels colder without your smile..."