Friday, 24 May 2013

Reminiscences...




 I lost count on how many times I promised not to write about  you... 
But how can you drown the will to put a stop to the constant loss of those sweet memories...




 I lost count on how many times I promised not to think of you... 
 But how can you not think, when everything reminds me of you...  




 I lost count on how many times I promised not to dream of you...
 But who can ever decide what one dreams... 

















I know you wish me to be gone, but yet I know something holds you back from leaving the thought of me behind. Darling you delivered your bleeding heart to me, but I was simply too scared to hold your hand. God knows how much it hurt me to see you depart, and God knows how hard it was to force my lips shut and utter no sound.

I have tried to ignore this feeling but yet something pulls me back to you over and over again. I promise that I will never shatter your world again, not for fear to break my own as mine turned to ashes the day you turned your back and walked away...far...without ever looking back.

How can you deny there was love where once there was emptiness... now it hurts even more to know we drown our feelings to deny each other...thus we do.

Alas, you had to leave, I will not weep for you today, but will shed a tear of joy as gratitude for coming into my life and fill it with short happy moments....moments I'll treasure trough my whole life.















Darling you came into my life faster then thunder and then left even more fast. You did not stay long into my life, but just long enough to leave your imprint on this thick skinned man.  
Darling I send you my love and a reminder that I'll always be here for you now and always... 







Picture by tumblr 




Monday, 20 May 2013

Sail me to shore

Katie Melua - If You Were A Sailboat









Last year this time we were planing how our life would have change in a year or so. Much have changed but we are still far from the goals we've set, far yet so close...

Guess all we have to do is to keep believing in the dreams we shared, we still share them after all. One day soon...very soon I hope... will become a reality.





Last year this time we walked down a sandy beach while the cool wind from the sea caressed our faces warmed by the soft sun of May. Our heart beating fast like a steam engine trying to catch up our breath  as we reached the shore...and feel the cold waters upon our feet. 







I remember it all as if it was only yesterday. Spent hours looking at a sailing boat gently rocking in the sea. And  we wondered how it would feel to be a sail-boat and wander from shore to shore. Wouldn't it be lovely?...







I remember the cold waters on our naked feet as we ran all the way back acting like kids again, or perhaps cause I fell in love again in that very moment...and yet again time seemed to have stopped. 
Thought it would have been a day just like every other ordinary day..walking silently along the sea hand in hand, perhaps...not uttering any word, letting a smile..a smirk transmit our feelings. 







Wouldn't it be lovely...if we could sit again on the same moist red sand sharing the beach with no one. And wouldn't it be lovely to find again the memories we left behind...I dearly keep these images of us, the beach, and that calm sail-boat almost enchanting on that perfect day. 







If you were a sail-boat I'll sail you to the same safe shore, I'll sail you safe through the storms. Not afraid of the high waves and the violent winds as they will blow me to this enchanted place, making me forget what we have just been through. I don't mind as long I'll have you. 






We soon had to go, the day got fast short, and we were no longer alone. But just before we turned our back, a last stare,  waved goodbye to that sail-boat promised we be back again to that very same shore, perhaps on another perfect day... 








For the words I never say, the feelings many times I don't show.
Bust just because I don't shout them out to the entire world it doesn't mean I don't love you... 

Thank you my love for reading my mind and understanding me even if many times my lips don't let out the words you expect to hear...






Pictures by Hotei 
Lyrics & music Katie Melua 






Monday, 13 May 2013

Pixel 3rd edition "Happy Xmas"





A few months back I was invited to join and write a short story with the theme (Happy Xmas) by Pixel. 
I must say It was not easy to fit all of what I had to say in just 250 words, but somehow I kind of managed. I enjoyed every second and every word I wrote down for this competition, and I be looking forward for the next! always if I be given the chance to participate.  

Today the E-book is out and launched. INDEX E-books have provided Copies on this link  HERE

Also printed copies are available on demand and orders. 





INDEX Say...
"The spirit of Christmas always so controversial" was the motto for the Pixel 3, whose theme was inspired by the music of John Lennon Happy Xmas. As in previous editions of the competition, the aspect of true stories had a significant weight, and this time with a special meaning for documenting one side less "happy" Christmas. This edition saw the participation of 27 authors, 32 stories (prose, in poetry and video / design), fulfilling the purpose of having beyond the stories written in prose form. For the first time the competition was won by a fiction story and it was due to the fact that the fictional stories have achieved exceptional quality!!.










PIXEL 1 and 2  short stories 
collection by various authors








 More from INDEX...
The contest Pixel (small stories lgbt) happens in the world of blogs, in the vast minority of the so called "blogsphere", and has featured two issues that took place on the blog (NET) that I am the author. The goal was not to hook and address professional  writers, but stories, be they true or imagined, and presented in a variety of forms (prose, poetry, video, images, sounds ...). The first contest was dedicated to the theme  "Good friends are hard to find"    song by Ed Harcourt  (which also gives the name to my blog), because it is a topic that we are always very important, and because at the core of "blogosphere"  friends are important and they are at the heart of writing, "especially those hardest to find"The second edition of Pixel had the motto  That hug   song by Gilberto Gil, because the  "blogosphere" is also a big hug that unites us all, including those on the other side of the Atlantic.









Thursday, 9 May 2013

You...




There where the sun rests
There where the wind dies
There where the echo sleeps
There where the stars are born
There where love resides







There I found you...







Picture by Hotei









Friday, 3 May 2013

Humming the same old melody...



Katie Melua - Mary Pickford










I'm just a man with dreams, simple!, ordinary dreams, but these are the dreams that make my world as it is, myself as I am. Me... in my good days and bad days, good or bad as I may be. I may open my mind and write down my emotions in a few lines, trying to find a way to feel lighter; hoping, working and striving for these dreams to become a reality. I think of myself as a character in a book engaging new adventures with every line that I read, overcoming  obstacles, meeting new characters  discovering more with every page I read in this story I call life.....



For the past two weeks I have been working on the last few renovations left in our apartment. Many times I be just alone in the empty rooms, only me and the thoughts in my head, and the awaiting dreams within those walls...those walls that are already saturated with dreams, some of them shattered and others that I want to hold onto. These are the dreams and memories I want to share with you....



A recent memory I be holding on is the one that happened today, guess this is what make people fall deep in for each other...the capability to share memories trough time, to be able to look back and say we done this together, we have over come that together, even if many times some things are left unsaid...like we are afraid to utter words to express feelings, but the beauty within life is that sometimes we can say a thousand word without talking....a look, a smile can tell a million things....



"Mary Pickford used to eat roses 
Thought that they'd make her beautiful and they did, 
one supposes.. "


 ...I hum, when I be standing on the stool trying to re-give glory to the old iron doors. Simply painting I find it to be almost therapeutic, it calms me and makes me feel happy....


"Douglas Fairbanks, he was so handsome,
He wore a moustache, 
Must-a had much cash, too,
Worth a king's ransom..."

  
...Well I be alone when singing, not everyone can appreciate talent or recognise a good voice when they hear it, if you get my drift...


"Charlie Chaplin, he was invited, 
When these artists became united..."


...Today I was not alone, Cass came along and helped me with the works. Time goes by faster when you have company and exchange a few words...or a smile perhaps... 


"David Griffith worked as an extra, 
Then as a stage-hand, 
Until they let him be
A director"


... Therapeutic yes! if done for a short while that is...after a few hours or better say days it is not even remotely calming and I find it of not any benefit at all...


"Dave was brave, a mover and shaker,
A true pioneer,
He seemed to show no fear, 
A real film maker"


....Made my self a coffee....coffee always makes the trick. Wandered in the empty rooms thinking of just nothing holding my brown hot mug in my hand, when I heard a soft hum...walked towards the familiar tune, there she was, with that sweet soft grin on her face...reminding me why I fell in love with her...



"They tied the knot together, 
Groom and bride couldn't hide their pleasure,
They tried to pick fair weather, 
But love died, didn't last forever"


...It is strange yet fascinating how she picked the same song I always sing when I'm alone...Thought I was dreaming...no it was real...real like the memory I be holding of this day....



"Mary Pickford used to eat roses, 
Thought that they'd make her beautiful and they did, 
One supposes......"




...







Written down as a reminder as I constantly grow... love, perhaps unspoken and for the things I leave unsaid....to you my lovely sweet inspiration. Thank you to be the simple you, I happen to love very much that simple you....yours Hotei.








Picture by Hotei
Music   & lyrics by Katie Melua 




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