The Wheel Of Destiny

There are certain moments in our life that time seams to stop, it doesn't go forward or backwards, it just stops. 
Moments that remain imprinted in our minds, never to be forgotten . 
These moments could be happy a moment that leave a mark on the monument of our heart, 
or they could be sad moments were we realise how fragile and vulnerable to the unfolding event we can be....
And this my friends is one of those moments...that I remember every single minute of it, as I saw my entire life crumble and fade away in moments....Fighting for life...afraid to lose my loved one.
Afraid of what tomorrow might bring.....

"All as planned... all as we wanted... following our dreams... nothing was in our way... nothing could have stopped us...".

No!, nothing could have stopped us, all was in control. Although many have told us that is was a crazy idea to go on this vacation. Us?! as  stubborn as we are (back then even more!) we decided not to listen to anyone, this time was not going to be of any difference!. Month after month all started to get more and more exiting as the day was growing nearer. Have to say that we had to do many sacrifices to save up the money needed...so most of our free time we still ended  up staying in. 

It was March of the year 2008, on a Sunday Cassidy her family and me where all gathered around the kitchen table playing the all times favourite monopoly, that Cassidy complained about some numbness in her left leg. "Nothing!" she kept on saying, "its just that I have been sitting here for hours now!, playing this stupid game!". "Why do we even bother playing it? we know you will always end up winning it!". I remember all as if it was just yesterday...Went back home that night, I was to be up early in the morning and Cassidy had to be at work by 8am. At around 6:30am  my phone woke me up ringing... it was Cassidy's mum telling me to pass by as she was worried about Cass left foot. Dressed up in a hurry as somehow I felt something was wrong. When I got there I found the two in a hot argument as her  mum wanted her to go to see a doctor and she was still saying "Its nothing!!" and something about going to be late for work!!. Well...I somehow managed to convince her that if it was "nothing" as she was calling it would have been just a 5 min trip to the doctor and I could drive her to work afterwards!! "Deal" she said in the attempt to shout the both of us!. Upon arriving to our family doctor it was just us and a young mother with her son in the waiting room..and after a few minutes it was our turn. I did not go in with them as I felt that it was not my place...and besides her mum was with her. A few minutes later the door opened and the doctor came to me...and told me while leaning over me.... "Hotei, you'll have to drive them to hospital...if its what I think..well better be there, they will make a few tests and probably give her some medication for it". Now I was getting worried as hell..."What is it?" I kept asking. "Just go" He gave me a paper and said now go give this to reception in emergency.... squeezed the paper in the palm of my hand, the paper that to this day I have still no  idea of what was written on it as I was to afraid to open....set in the car and the doctor followed..."To the hospital...and fast ok..."

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Sakura

After a couple of months I started feeling more and more confident, stopped freaking out each time we made love. And I am sure she felt the same way as I did. 

During the winter time we kept on planning our dream home and set all of the paper work needed....meanwhile we decided it was time to go on a long trip...we both needed a holiday...especially me! work was getting to much into me, with less hours off and now had started working a part time  too! so that I could pay off some of the works being done on the apartment quicker!!.

Cassidy and me always wanted to visit Japan,  but we both knew it was a big expense. Still this did not hold us back cause a few weeks later we somehow managed to organize a trip to Japan! It was going to be a dream becoming a reality! Asked if it would have been possible to have leave for a month at work and after a lot of debate it was granted!!. So there we where, soon we would have embarked a trip to Japan!!! Booked the hotel in the old imperial city in Kyoto  for 2 weeks...sent mail to Taka to let him know I was going to be in Hiroshima for a few days too!. Then 4 days In Tokyo then a week in Okinawa! truly a dream holiday! It was going to cost us a fortune but it was part of our dream....and once we set something in our heads nothing on earth could ever change our minds!.  By November we had everything sorted out! agreed with the agency that we would pay for everything monthly, and that by May (The month we where to leave) it would all be paid for!. So it happened... months flew by and our dream was about to become reality...soon very soon....

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No tittle....

Just finished my morning espresso, and a ham sandwich...."the older I get the harder is to recover from hangovers.."guess Tory was right about this!! But I must say it was an amazing evening! I longed for a day like yesterdays evening! So a big thanks should go to Tory (I know you listen ^^ ) and to her Irish friend...sorry forgot her name again!!!  the alcohol lingering in my body not helping me to remember :P 

11 hours later ...

I am now getting to remember a few hints of what happened last night! xD God Dublin in 2 years!! I must really start working on that if I want it to become a reality! But we all made a promise, so we must all try and keep it! And I can already see me mopping the floor in Dublin!!

                                                                                                             Me on St Patrick's Day 

But first must recover from this hang over ! xD 

                                                                                                   Me this morning...

I must add that the coffee cocktail was just out of this world...I just have one complaint...they should really use a more man(ly) glass!!! or perhaps I should order mine in a coffee cup next time xD. 

                                                                                                       Note to barman...man glass!!

So looking forward to see you soon one of the days coming...so that we could show the pretty looking Irish that there is much more to see!!! 

And dear....whenever you need remember I'm here..never forget that!....you helped me when I was needing help the most.....I will never forget that....thanks dear...

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Happy Sunday!!

          Thank God Its Sunday !! 

                                                        

                                                      at last the week is over....

                                                                      what a bloody week it was!! 

                Now all I need is a good rest and a good drink...

                                                                                             You my friends have a nice Sunday...

me I will go where no one knows me I need some time with 

                                                                                      my close friends...

                   and probably.....

                                                                             get wasted!!!...

Happy Sunday!!! 

The flood

 I was feeling tired last night, it could have been the day out or the couple of glasses of O'porto wine that made me feel heady.  So I thought I have an early night, thought I sign in for a few minutes before I get in bed, perhaps I could find some one to have a little talk with,   signed in..but found no one on....Checked my mail but found noting....went on Facebook but again noting. Alright! I said to my self, a quick look to my blogg and off to bed I go! Somehow, I found my self reading old posts of mine, went back to early August, read a few post and actually got goose bumps while reading...I some how forgot what was passing in my head back then...

While reading "on the bed where I sleep" 

I remembered more happened then just counting sheep. 

My memories to life again I brought
as deep inside more and more I sought 

One particular fragment glistened in the dark 
A girl in a box, lost I found, and now I keep as a mark 

I took her home with me 
but never she had to be set free 

By day and night I protected her 
and many times we ended in endless stare   

She wanted to be part of my world 

 In my life you ended up in a twirl 

You wished for me to meet you with a balloon

But soon we where stopped by the start of the monsoon 

You where gone...gone with the flood 

As chills I felt in my blood 

Where have you gone now my dear?

You not to return I'm afraid ...I fear...

 remember you......... wanted 

to be                      part of my world, 

and you did my 

                                                        dear...

Thank you "F"