Now and always...

Letting it go, is this all about?.  My dear, Guess I know what are you trying to do... I finally understand, and I don't blame you for doing so, I caused you anything but happiness...I wish if you could listen, I wish if you could stay... perhaps stay... forever. 

I never thought this could change never thought I see the day you going away..and in such a cold way. Then I sit and think, I was a cold person, I was far and distant..never meant to be but I guess it felt that way...all I have left are the nice memories of you to hold onto, your smile, your laughter, your eyes and your voice...

But my darling if you'll have to go please do not say you'll leaving, that would be to much to take...
I was left with a bitter sweet felling never I though I would. This silence is just to much sometimes it hurts my head, thinking I said something wrong...guess I did something wrong, the way I hang up on you last time, after all I wish that moment never ended.. my heart pounded so hard as you called my name again.  

I just want to let you know that I be here waiting for you, no matter how much time this will take, I be silently waiting even if it means forever for what happened will never be erased. 

Sometimes I think if I have stayed longer to hear...longer to listen....would you be here today?. This may look like time all waisted in vain.. why I did not stay? ...why did you have to go?.   

My darling this is not a goodbye...

Picture  by tumblr

Shadows fading away

Sadly the blog diary of my shadows came to an end, for a few reasons that I don't really agree with, but that is the choice of the owner. After stating my point in a very hot argument with Gwanni about the termination of his diary last night, I was posed this question "What if you had to terminate your blog?"

 One day or an other my blog have to come to an end...hope not as abrupt as the last time, but that was a different matter. The blog originally was taking a direction that would have put poor "Christian Grey" face to shame! as I done things far more daring then the stuff mentioned in the now famous "50 shades of Grey!!", and must add that me and Mr Christian Grey  share quite a lot in common! perhaps not the look or the money lol. But now will not share most of the stuff happened as I think some things have to remain un-told, for a bit of mystery..you know! :)

Well... to be honest I never thought that my blog would have gone this far...as it was created to share and show the importance of dialogue, and to be honest with your loved one, and to always be honest at least with yourself. I say this and then I look to my self and I say that I am still learning day after day with you.  Was meant to write the happenings of the last years, were all started, and the change I faced from a naive and innocent boy to a cold distant man ...

I was on the edge and kept all inside me until one day... had to share it with some one, so I found poor Tory and emptied what I have been doing and a bottle of Amaretto too lol. What a headache and what a hangover I had to face the morning after!! Must say that my dear friend Tory was pretty shocked at the news, "Never would have though....never would have thought" that was her reaction. And never would I have thought that I would do such stuff if I really want to come clean....

Now I keep on writing and writing, many a times I don't follow a pattern as more stuff keep on happening in my life and my shadows many times haunt me, but I made up my mind now, I will ignore!. When it comes to Cassidy...well not sure if I will ever tell her about this diary, even-though she knows me inside out and she knows a good 80% of what is written down in this diary, she will never understand the end bit of my diary, and I must say nor do I!!.

Hope I made my self more clear, and if I did not well... you can always ask lool... you might be surprised by the answer if you'll get one in the first place :P

"I would like to give a salute to my friend Gwanni and wish him all the best hopefully we will hear again soon from him, may be he will come back stronger then ever!!"

Goodbye Diary Of My Shadows...

 

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Share a dream with a green dinosaur!

I would like to thank Andre' from the blog Dream Dinosaur Project for posting and amazingly picture the scene!. 

Been following for the past 3 weeks this very unusual blog that talks about dreams, and since I get a few weird dreams,  I love to know that I'm not the only one lolol. 

This dream happened to me a few months ago for a few nights I dreamt and dreamt the same dream 

and many a times I felt bad when I woke up...especially when in the next days 

you discover some facts were true in the real life...

guess Mr Sand man plays some nasty tricks at times!.

Here is the dream.....My Dream.....

 It all started when I ventured myself into a parking lot, lost. I did not know the area and did not recognize the buildings! The buildings were painted yellow and white. In this parking lot I noticed a guy (I know him) rummaging in clothes in a small car "a (W) beetle" until a friend of him ...he called her "Anna", called him. - I later discovered his best friend in the real world was named Anna, pretty freaky shit, huh?! -.

Well, she told him to come and not to talk to strangers -meaning "Me"- (Bitch!!!). I wandered for a long time and found myself in an old area full of old houses and a chapel where people where gathering wearing black. There I found my friend again, but the more I approached him, the more he went towards the crowd until disappearing into it, just giving me the chance to grab his arm. He looked at me and said "Just leave...NOW" ...I ran away in despair (Drama Queen!).

Found myself in a known area...in the old capital where I work...wandered in the empty roads and found myself looking down to the city from over the bastions...the view was not the one I was used to ...I was looking to a big city a city I did not know...as if the old capital had been moved to a different location...all of a sudden a small, fat, ginger, blue-eyed kitten came to me from the edge of the bastion walls. I picked the little creature and felt somehow safe...this kitten told me to take him home...and so I did. I got into my car and drove and drove for ages but the buildings were constantly changing and I could not recognize many of them... I finally made it home,  to an empty home where time seemed to have stopped....it was cold and started to get dark ....the cat said to me: "I'm finally home".

Special thanks to Andre' for the post and this amazing hand drawn picture!

Faces

Faces come and go in our life, walking in the streets we meet and forget, but there is who leaves a mark. 
A mark forever imprinted. 

Faces..empty faces with no emotions, that is what we meet in the streets, cold faces.
But no!, your face...the face I know.
Its warm.

I must say I'm sorry for forgetting such a special day...its not for the year that is gone.
but for the many yet to come.



 Lets hope it will be the one year you and me dream ...

I'm sitting on the clocks hands watching time go by... 
Its seems hours have turned to seconds... 

While I finish this last note a year will pass by...
I will always wait in this special place... 

But I must admit all of it was worthwhile...

I can wait till the end of time... 

When time is right...

I wake up... 

In this different world... 

To find faces I don't know... 

But out of the crowd ...

Faces..

Familiar faces ...  

But no one...
No one...
 Can see my face... 

Yet I am familiar to them..

But out of the crowd...
A face... 
One familiar face... 
A face I know... 
Faces they come and go... 
But your face was the one to stay... 

People make mistakes... 
In forgetting special dates.. 
We are brothers, not the same... 
But for this who do we have to blame?
So many tales to tell... 
The wind blows in our way ...
Many faces 
We think we will be gone by tomorrow 
Not today ...
Better be today....
Its just a day...
Yesterday..
 Yesterday it was yesterday ..
I wait till tomorrow...
Why did we miss yesterday?
In a little messed up way... 
I feel sorry... 
But that was yesterday...

I feel you on the other side...
Its time to fly..
Just like my words...

I'm sorry for yesterday...


                                               Make a wish....

Dedicated to my faraway yet close brother Gwanni that lives to the west ....

                                                          ...Wish you a happy  Birthday 

Fragile

"Fragile..... we are so fragile I know its a bit (cliché) but we are like candles in the wind , sometimes we try to hold on to this life, fight for our life.....but at the end of the day  we are just so fragile..".

Look at the cliffs near the sea, big and strong but with each wave; sometimes gentle... sometimes furious it  eats them away. I don't want to be eaten away by the waves that are hitting my shores. I see life unfolding before my eyes and I feel helpless, I can't stop time...but I can live in this time, I can try and make something out of it...I say every day ..every extra day we get is a bonus so might as well not waist it and live,  make the most out of it...ohh yes the most ...not less. Learn from yesterdays mistakes it will prepare us for tomorrow's.

Pawns in the hand of destiny are we?. In this life we meet people of all sorts of shapes and sized every one made in its special way, everyone with his or her characteristic some good others less...
I have always tried to live good live and let live always have been my motto... but there were times that I did forget this idealism and turned, changed to someone I did not know...

That is what happened to me after the long  tiring battle for life..I could not take one more thing I blamed it on everything including myself  instead of fighting it back I surrendered to it... raised a white flag. What made me go on was her, the look in her eyes...the fact that no matter what happened she kept strong even tough she new nothing was going to be the same any more. Destiny blocked this road? screw it we go around it!.   I would not be the man I would be today if it was not for you, I many times don't show and many times ignore the call of you...many times you been patient even if you had the right and reason not to be. For that I am grateful. Even the choices I'v made I learnt not to regret try.... not to at least.


Dear life, 
When sometimes I'm alone I wonder how funny this life is...every time we need something or someone...and we make a call from deep within our soul...our call for help is heard.... a shoulder on the west..... a warm smile and a beating heart to the east ... strength from across the ocean .......and support  from the north...
                                                                              ...yours Hotei.


I'm not afraid to be fragile as its a sign I have feelings...

No tittle....

Just finished my morning espresso, and a ham sandwich...."the older I get the harder is to recover from hangovers.."guess Tory was right about this!! But I must say it was an amazing evening! I longed for a day like yesterdays evening! So a big thanks should go to Tory (I know you listen ^^ ) and to her Irish friend...sorry forgot her name again!!!  the alcohol lingering in my body not helping me to remember :P 

11 hours later ...

I am now getting to remember a few hints of what happened last night! xD God Dublin in 2 years!! I must really start working on that if I want it to become a reality! But we all made a promise, so we must all try and keep it! And I can already see me mopping the floor in Dublin!!

                                                                                                             Me on St Patrick's Day 

But first must recover from this hang over ! xD 

                                                                                                   Me this morning...

I must add that the coffee cocktail was just out of this world...I just have one complaint...they should really use a more man(ly) glass!!! or perhaps I should order mine in a coffee cup next time xD. 

                                                                                                       Note to barman...man glass!!

So looking forward to see you soon one of the days coming...so that we could show the pretty looking Irish that there is much more to see!!! 

And dear....whenever you need remember I'm here..never forget that!....you helped me when I was needing help the most.....I will never forget that....thanks dear...

pictures by gooogle images 

2nd time lucky!

Once again I have been nominated for the Liebster award! I must thank Epsita for thinking of me and my blogg, never I thought I would be nominated again for the Liebster award!. A big THANK YOU from the bottom of my heart :) 

The rules are simple

One must answer 11 questions 

Ask an other 11 questions 

Tell 11 things about yourself 

 Nominate your favourite blogs 

Questions proposed to me!

1. Your favourite blog?
2. What is the one beauty item you can't live without?
3. What you find difficult to deal with; Lie or Jealousy? 
4. How do you spend your free time?
5. If given a chance what will you choose next as your favourite genre for writing?
6. Your present genre?
7. What advice would you give a new blogger?
8. What are the best 5 words that would describe you?
9. Are you scared of anything?
10. What TV show do you watch?
11. Sunrise or Sunset?

My answers!

 

1. Diary of my shadows! 
2. Hum.. well I am not vain, but I can't do without my skin cleanser!! 
3. None! I don't tend to Lie ....well may be just white lies but a lie for a good reason is not a lie! 
4. My free time, hum guess depends on the season, in summer I be swimming and in winter I be idling about :P
5. Story teller!!
6. Personal ...very personal!! 
7. Take a deep breath ...have a drink... GO WRITE!!! 
8. Naive, friendly, fun (they say), trusty and real.
9. Bloody spiders!! 
10. Hum...the food network anything as long its not the barefoot contessa!!
11.  Both!!^^ 

About me! 

I think I gave the longest name to a cat in history!! 

Although I drive a lot I hate doing it! 

I collect perfumes!

I paint..used to 

Can be very artistic...used to be :P 

No one calls me with my real name at home!

I once bleached my hair to white!! completely!!

I was a pyromaniac when I was little! 

I love listening to the piano!

I'm loud!!

I finally washed my car!! :) 

My questions!! 

1. What is your dream, what do you wish for the most?
2. First love?
3. Craziest thing you have done?
4. Strangest food you have eaten?
5. Your last dream?
6. What do you fear?
7. Next country to visit?
8. Name three good and three bad things about your self!.
9. Biggest fuck-up you have done? (funny!) 
10. A person you admire most?
11. If you won the lottery what would you do?

And the nominees go to!!!! 

http://diaryofmyshadows.blogspot.pt/

 http://robadanoncredere.wordpress.com/

http://mysterious-diva.blogspot.com/

http://1way2directions.blogspot.com/

http://dusana-attracthappiness.blogspot.com/

http://momofseraphim.blogspot.com/

http://bleachedfawn.blogspot.com/

http://genutsu.blogspot.com/

congratulations!! 

Have fun!! 

^^ 

100!

Sunday!.. I don't usually work on Sundays, 

 I usually lay in bed longer, I can sleep a good five or six hours!

But today had to be up early, last night work was extraordinary busy 

and since I have to be the one leaving last and check that all the lights are off, and so on.

well  pretty tired as I was,  after such a busy service, forgot to turn off 

water pumps and water heaters! 

so had to go in early before Mr Crabs gets in and find out!! 

gosh...

Well... while I was there and giving the fact that it was such a nice sunny day 

I thought I make the most of it, 

so I took a stroll in the city, 

the narrow streets where crowded with tourist.

ventured my self into a new cafe' opened early this year. 

I was pretty curious to see the decor in this new place 

since they tend to go all out and grand! 

As I savoured on a warm chocolate tart  and an espresso 

while looking at the breath taking view of the island from hi above..

I thought if one day I should share this with you..

so reached for my camera and thought of having a few pictures taken 

perhaps for a future post!. 

~~~~0~~~~

Seams Just like yesterday that I have started this journey, 

now looking back I can see how much my life has changed, 

It have been only four months since I have started this blog...

well actually more...since it was private at the very beginning.

Today I feel like placing a mile stone my 100th post!! 

seams like a small number but believe me it took a lot to write and let this all out..

I have been always shy when It came to personal matters 

...so to share what I actually feel came out to be very difficult many a times.

The days where I was planning to leave it all behind..

The days where I was about to say goodbye to my lovely country, family and friends..

The days where Lisbon called my name..

Then 

...

I woke! 

And I must thank you my dear friend Horus 

Thanks for giving me strength to start this blog 

thanks for all of your help.

Thanks to you my wise woman, 

you listened to my whispers, 

you saw right trough me.

I wish to Thank you all!! 

Thanks for listening to me dear friends 

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Back to the fast lane

Run, Run, Run! back to the fast lane ! I have completely forgot how it feels to be in it! I somehow love it I somehow hate it! I love the fact to be part of a  tight laced team (well it was until one resigned >< ).... anyway.. and I hate the fact that I don't have much time for me!.

Had many things planed, but now with the new menu planning and all had to postpone them to later on!. So my apologies to you listeners of Whispers!. Hope I finish most of the work soon and be back to you! Mr crabs permitting :P I simply don't like the man at all! but what can I do he's my boss, and the business is his!

So I finish this cup of coffee and carry on !

                                                   Pictures provided by tumblr

Thank you Patty !

Yippy ! I have been nominated for the Liebster Award !!

thanks Patricia for the nominee!  

http://www.lifeisonlywhatyoumakeit.blogspot.com/

Have to admit I had no Idea what the Liebster award thingy was! had to do some research on that!. Now I think I got the rules right " I hope I did anyway :P I am not very keen on doing these things!"

These are the questions proposed to me ! 

1. What is your favourite song?
2. What's your favourite animal on land?
3. Where would you travel to if money wasn't an issue?
4. Can you do a hand stand?
5. Name three things you love
6. Do you have a favourite blogger? (name one)
7. What is one memory from childhood?
8. Do you have a favourite Tv show?
9. Do you like pizza?
10. Name three things you would like to do before you die?
11. What event in life gave you a second chance? 

• What is your favourite song?

Easy! Imaginary by evanescence! 

•  What's your favourite animal on land?

Definetly Cat ! 

• Where would you travel to if money wasn't an issue?

Japan ! Its my dream to visit Japan ! I was once close to go for a month but faith decided differently!.

Can you do a hand stand?

Ok had to google this! to know what a hand stand was! xD ...well I can but only if I support to a wall at first !!. 

• Name three things you love?

My dear ones....chocolate .....and ho God so many to to choose from ....swimming. 

• Do you have a favourite blogger? (name one)

So I love to read personal blogs ..so I have to say my fave is "Horus"

• What is one memory from childhood?

peacefulness! the way I could see the world...it was so safe...."does that count?" well if it doesn't I remember setting fire to the garage!! I was quite a donated pyromaniac!! xD

• Do you have a favourite Tv show?

Big Band Theory!! and the collector! 

• Do you like pizza?

Name someone who doesn't! 

• Name three things you would like to do before you die?

Visit far away friends....see my family grow together.....leave a mark on this planet. 

•  What event in life gave you a second chance?

Hum tough one! guess love did....

The rules!!

You must list 11things about yourself.

Answer 11 questions put to you by the person awarding you.

Choose up to 11 to bloggers with less then 200 followers.

Inform them of the nomination!  

About me!!

My favourite colour is blue.

I love the sea !!! 

Hate spiders :(

My favourite dish is rabbit. "mama style!" 

Favourite spirit Captain Morgan.
Favourite band evanescence.
Passion to cook
Ice cream and chocolate addict!! 

 Im a Gemini!
Adore history
In love with different cultures!

And the Nominees Are:

http://diaryofmyshadows.blogspot.pt/

http://flipinayweeblether.blogspot.co.uk/

http://www.weblogerati.com/

http://comenovember.wordpress.com/

http://rumpunchdrunk.blogspot.com/

http://memoirsoffahimaayub.blogspot.com/

http://tazein22.blogspot.in/



Whoops forgot the Questions!!

1. what is your favourite colour? 
2. what would you do if you were to die tomorrow?
3. in which era would you like to live if you had the chance?
4. if you have the chance to have a one on one dinner with whom would you do it? (may be dead or alive) 
5. what do you fear?
6. who is the most important living person to you?
7. if you had to change one thing in the world what would it be?
8. if you had to be born in a different country where that would be?
9. one funny thing about you?
10. best quality in you? 
11. favourite quote? 

My Guardian Angel

Alarm rang again today...reached for it to smash it onto the floor  yet again!....woke up to a silent home today.....my parents are away, found a note on the kitchen table on top of a dish that was covered with a tea towel ...."please bake!". Our lunch...well if brother shows up any way!....switched on the coffee machine and the oven and placed the dish in the oven......pie!, mums meat pie I love it ....
Remind me of when I was little...standing up on a chair trying to roll out dough while almost suffocating in  a cloud of flour!! while my siblings where out playing in the yard and dad at work..... . looking back, I don't recognise that family any more, somehow we all grew distant...I can't tell what really happened to us, its like everyone went on his own way and no one ever stooped to look back to see if the others where any near...

Made myself a double espresso and walked back to my room, looked for my camera lead cord in my bedside cabinet, want to see yesterdays pictures, the one I took at the beach yesterday morning.  I came across a pencil sketch I made when I was roundabout 10...my guardian angel, the way I saw it.I remember I felt safe looking at it and thinking that it was looking over me ....sweet memories....forever gone.... a well knit family...

 I can remember quite clearly those days....
.......now that had that nostalgic feeling....reached for my box of memories that  I treasure in my bedside table.

I keep anything of sentimental value in it and some times I need to open it and remember the wonderful old days. I keep anything from an old coin to an old birthday card..to old pictures of my family and pictures of my siblings and me...

You realise how much time passed only when looking back at old photos...I almost forgot when was the last time I took my time to look trough old family pictures, never have much time alone, usually our house is too noisy....washing machine on! radio on !! TV on!!!. not mentioning my brothers kids..screaming, jumping and making uncle swear....God bless them ...  tough sometimes I feel like strangling  them!!but I love those little sods...

Me at the age of 3 ....playing in the bath tub...bitter memories these are....remember a few days later after this picture was taken aunt died of cancer...loved her like my own mother... miss her much. I was just 3 but there was a special bond between us...never forget you...

Same year this was taken....my birthday with my brothers slicing upon a chocolate cake made by mum ....lol I remember her cakes all covered in chocolate and colourful  smarties!!! Lovely memories these are...sometimes I wish I could turn back time and savour once again these moments....

Never had much, we had just enough to get trough the day, we had ourselves supported by the love of a caring mother ....and that 
 was all that we could we ever ask for ...



Hooo this.....me and the little puppy...at my uncles house...a few months later I could have rode that little Doberman puppy!! He was huge!! same size as a pony! he ate like a pony....was strong as one too...

He had a very fierce look !! and very prominent stature! 

Lived a quite long life...so I guess he was a happy and well taken care of "little"dog ...




This is me and the Doberman a few months later .....kidding!!.. :D


Me at our farm....this was a nice way to grow up... especially when the summer holidays were on, I spent days playing and running in the countryside. We had all sorts of farm animals from cows, goat's, chicken, rabbits to ducks. Had a couple of horses too! and occasionally rode them...I don't know what happen to me! nowadays I can't find the guts to ride one :o/ ...



Its sad to think all this is gone, but at least I have these memories to treasure in my heart. We live a short life, we must grasp every moment I suppose. These days are gone and never will come back, but we have the chance to make new moments for me to keep in my box of memories.The future is not far! the future starts tomorrow!!.   

Must return to the reality of the present times close my box of memories and place it safe in the dark of my bedside cabinet, now its time to move and hit the shower! and something tells me that  I better check on that pie!!.

Grown ups need hugs too

 I am back, and ready to share it all again... had to put down my blog for almost a month but now I'm back!! 

It have been a hectic month.. I have been trough a lot these past weeks....I was in denial more then one time....my thanks must go to those who supported me ...Thank you   :)



It all started when Cassidy went on a holiday, I could not be with her cause of  work, in a way,  I was happy, I needed time to clear my mind, I needed "me me time" . I cant recall when  I had two weeks on my own, although it felt awkward not to be with her, somehow I felt it was a good opportunity to discover more my self,  having more time to think.I must admit that at one point in time my brains over worked and almost bursted  for over working them!.here I have to thank my friend Tory...

.....Tory....you perhaps saw a new side of me that you didn't know it could exist. I really needed to let it all out and you were there to listen to me....to my nonsense ..to my whining to my cries!. Thanks for letting my feelings speak, and understanding. I will never ever forget what you have done!, ...and how I could forget the splitting headache that I woke up with the day after we talked? all that amaretto!!! :D. Thanks for distracting me from me!. You somehow knew what I was in need of....

Loved the hairy pussy shave, I found it quite stress relieving. Loved feeding the tiny kittens too!. Loved the board game in the evening, even if I was pitiful!, I was pretty sure it was miss Scarlet!!!  

For I am not the one

You can be trained for the unexpected but when it happens you are really never prepared. A goodbye will always be hard even if you have been expecting it. I hate the word goodbye, I am more a "see you" person. Goodbye sounds like an indefinite amount of time.... 


I have this stuck in my head, I must drain it, here I am still in my swimming trunks still moist to the touch, draining my thoughts, my feelings...I must do it I can't wait, for the night to fall to write.

You might not realise how important to me you are, you can't imagine the agonising feeling in my chest, trying to act like nothing happened. You have give me all that you are and all that you had, I was too scared to hold you here. Now I'm afraid you see the monster that I can become. Angel of mine I can still feel the Goosebumps over my skin as you asked me to leave...I knew the day would come but never this soon...I hate it, I really hate it. But if this is for the best, if this will be of any help to you. I am happy to carry this once again. Angel of mine I had promised never to fall again until the day you  crossed my path...I repeated this to my self over and over....but I refused to listen...now here I am mourning yet again!

Angel of mine you have promised me you be with me, live day by day....now that image is far.... I just see your face in my head, I see your face everyday as I close my eyes...the same image I will carry for all of my living days wondering how you will look in a year...in a decade..will you have children? seven you said once! crazy thing you are...crazy moments you gave me...crazy thing this goodbye....

I have this song is stuck in my head for the past two days

I would like to share it with you...

I sense there's something in the wind
That seems like tragedy's at hand
And though I'd like to stand by him
Can't shake this feeling that I have
The worst is just around the bend

And does he notice my feelings for him?
And will he see how much he means to me?
I think it's not to be

What will become of my dear friend?
Where will his actions lead us then?
Although I'd like to join the crowd
In their enthusiastic cloud
Try as I may, it doesn't last

And will we ever end up together?
no, I think not, it's never to become

For I am not the one

For I am not the one

From the nightmare before Christmas 

The Lullaby That Wakes Me Up..

Go on play it,

the same song 

go on play it, 

let this be our lullaby 

go on sing it, 

heard it over and over but still makes no sense 

go on sing it, 

I hate this lullaby 

I heard this already....I felt this already...I been here already...I'm familiar to this....so why am I feeling so bad?

Take the darkest words and and play them, make them our lullaby.   

Let this be the end of the world of make believe, I can see it, I can feel it crumble under my feet. 

In my world of make believe, I play again this lullaby....In her world of make believe she never stopped playing this lullaby.

Some how I wish I could set fire to this world, some how I want to escape this world. 

This lullaby is still in my head 

I can still hear it 

I can still taste it 

I can still see it 

This lullaby is still in my head 

I love this lullaby, 
all my thought, 
she resides in me,
I love this lullaby, 
In my world of make believe, 
your here forever... 

I met a young little fellow near the sea shore, he said,
"You will forget the lullaby only if you return the box to the ocean". 
I turned my back to the little fellow
and kept singing this Lullaby...

Happy Sunday

Love and friendship knows no boundaries..

Hachiko

In 1924 a proffesor in agriculture took Hachiko as a pet. 

Hachiko, was a golden brown Akita dog.

During his owners life Hachiko greeted him at the end of the day at the nearby train station.

The two continued this daily routine till May 1925.

One day at work, proffesor Ueno suffered  from cerebral haemorrhage, and died, 

never returning to the train station where Hachico was waiting. 

For the next nine years Hachico waited every day for his beloved owner return. 

...

At first the attendants tried to scare, and to get Hachico out of the station for a long time, 

but many daily users of the station had seen the proffesor and Hachico together,

so soon enough left let the poor dog alone. 

 In October 1932 an article was published about Hachiko, 

from that day people started bringing treats to the poor dog.

 This continued for nine years, every day!!

And every day precisely at the due time that the train was suppose to come!! 

Hachico caught the nations attention, and he was used as an example of loyalty.

...

In March 8th 1934 Hachico died ...waiting for his owners return...

A metal statue was erected in the station as a memorial for Hachiko's loyalty.

Every year Hachico's devotion is honoured with a solemn ceremonty at the Tokyo Shibuya  rail-road station.   

Let Hachico be an example for all of us.

Happy Sunday wherever you are :)

Thank you

(I know this is breaking the story line, but I cannot go on writing if I don't share this...I wish to thank you dear Gwanni)

"It is hard to find good friends! its not easy to trust..especially when meeting them online...like in our case..but we believed in friendship and it paid off...distance seems not an obstacle now!". 

A year ago, when I decided to resign from my work I never imagined that I would have embarked such an "adventure". 

I was in search  for "me" and I found "you".

You helped me out in the most hard moments, you gave me the strength to go on ..keep fighting! 

never give up!.

An important lesson you willingly shared with me .

You say I helped you!  I say we helped each other..

You say I am special!  I say what was created is special ..

When I came to a point I was about to give up on everything, you were there.

When I was about to run away, you were there,  you held me back from doing things I would have regret!

To you I dedicate one of my most favourite songs from my most favourite singer,

she like us battled her own self and never gave up, even when it seamed there was no way out! 

(This is a performance that she made during the presentation for the Nobel prize for peace)

Lost in paradise  

Last night, like many other nights you made me feel special...

     when I found the pictures yesterday ..they brought up memories ....happy and sad too  

perhaps now you see more the way I was brought up 

   what I been trough all these years ..

      one thing I regret 

                       

                                              I wish I met you before 

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