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I gladly accepted the challenge and therefore made up a new page in this blog. 

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Over and over many have brought to my attention  that they find very difficult to navigate in my blog, especially when coming to read older post.! But few have noticed the MEMORIES button in the side bar.

Therefore  I have changed the MEMORIES button to an index on its own hoping that this will help navigators more. Now  the months will show, Click on month and all the post for that month will be displayed on one page. Hope this is of any help to you. Find all of my posts under the NEW BUTTON 
                                             
                          THE MEMORY JAR. 


Please let me know how it goes, and if it is of any help to you. 


Thanks Hotei 

Forever?

Now that winter was here I had more time off, as the low season began. 

That meant that I had more time to spend with Cassidy,and the more time we spend with someone we like the more attraction there is. It was a cold day with rain showers every now and then but we decided to go for a walk, had a beer at our favourite pub and headed to the beach just a few minutes away from there. 

We sat on the rocky ground.The wind was cold as it came from the sea every now and then surprised by a droplet of ice cold sea water on our faces.

Wrapped our arms to keep each other warm as we looked up at the starry  night. 

Exchanged a kiss.  Looked in each others eyes.Kissed again.

Our breath became more heavy as the intensity of our kisses grew. 

Kissed her forehead..her neck ..

Slowly she slipped her hand from under my jersey and hugged me tight. 

I replied by doing the same and ran my fingers from the bottom of her back up to her neck along the spine..this made her shiver and breath even more deeply. 

I kissed her and kissed her over and over again, I heard her saying please be gentle and she placed my hand on her jeans button. 

I un-buttoned them and pulled them a little, she un-buttoned mine!

my hand moved into her underwear and felt her warm body...

(although it was a cold night I don't remember I had felt any cold at all!)  She sank down onto the rocks and pulled me over her..kissed her and kissed her over and over as I unzipped and slowly pushed my self inside her..."my heart pounded deeply into my head" our bodies shivered not for the cold, but for the intensity of the moment!  

She tightly held to me and moaned softly. Although it was not the first time for me it felt like it was the first time! Drops of rain came down from heaven may be as a sign to bless that special moment. The moment got more intense ..we placed our selves nearer and nearer till our souls touched each others.

The rain got more heavy  now..I whispered...

                                   I will love you forever...

      please don't hurt me..

                                                            never leave me..

 The rain kept  getting stronger..as we looked to each other , without saying a word started dressing up again pulling up our now soaking wet cloths I noticed...It was the first time for her..

she gave me what most was precious to her... 

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Under my skin

Love!

I decided that the best thing  was to be just friends with Rose and stop the wild relation (I'm afraid as I start to have doubts or fear I create a shell and lock my self waiting like a seed for the first rain to sprout again).

So if that is so, all I had to do was waiting for the first drop of rain...and that is what happened!. The rain came under the name and form of Cassidy!... 

Have to admit that she stole my heart with her kindness, her smile, her sharp eyes..she could read me like an open book, decided to have no secrets and I shared all with her. We dated over and over again (even if back that time it was difficult since I still didn't have a driving  licence). Looking back now after almost eight years..there are things I would change things I wish I never have done, but that would have meant that I  would never be the person I am today! All happen for a reason I guess. I don't regret meeting Cassidy never  I did...

I used to call it a delicate relationship, it was different from the one's I had before, the others went on so fast that sometimes I couldn't have the time to think things over.  For the first time I felt really loved! but would I love back?

Yes sure ...I could ...one night while watching fire works over the harbour we promised love to each other, I couldn't control the strong emotion this nice feeling inside. I remember I asked her not to ever leave and as she said as long as you never leave me! I cried, cried and hugged her for a long while in the dark....darkness..only broken for a few seconds by the colourful flashes in the sky.

(This was and still is a beautiful memory and still lives....Its is nice to remember....and now to share. Something  withstood the proof of time...eight years from that day...eight? or seven?....seven living the dream  one....living the lie....).

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Tantric sex!

One day during a busy dinner Jessica (the head waitress) played soft music on the restaurant's hi-fi. The name of the CD was (Tantric sex) "if I recall properly!". One of the guest a lady in her 60's was dinning on her own on a table in the corner near the window. All of a sudden the lady placed the cutlery down violently on the plate as she pushed away the heavy iron table!! Spread open on the chair and started touching her self!!!. God what a moment! the other guests started giggling and covering there faces so she wont notice that they were laughing at her!. Jessica went to her table and asked her "is everything alright madam?".

"yes, yes...Tantric sex! I love it!, it turns me on!!" and she started breathing deeply (Not giving a shit about the other guests). 

Jessica literally jumped to the hi-fi pushed the CD out, snapped it in two and in the bin it went!!!.

God it was hilarious!! The next day during breakfast Jessica made sure she played non sensual music so she played "Dido"....  "Bad idea" the lady came in, dressed in a long white dressing gown...opened her arms widely and loudly exclaimed "Dido!!!....I love Dido...I play it back at home....I adore her!!" Jessica stood still in the middle of the restaurant with her mouth open (I guess she thought FUCK !!!! not again!!!) Jessica had two plates in her hand waiting to be served on a table, but the lady held Jessica from her waist and twisted and turned dragging Jessica with her (and yes by the time the spinning was over none of the food was left on the plates!!!).

A new beginning

Love can wait, but it can't wait for ever.

As the days, weeks and months passed my wounds started healing, it was a slow recovery as Ta chan was a deep cut into my flesh.

My mourning period was coming to an end as my heart started beating again.

I have to admit that sometimes I had moments that I felt like someone just removed a vital part of me...and other days I felt like  hate growing inside me, may be for the fact that Ta chan was back with her (ex) boy friend, I hated the fact that she did accept him back, the engagement story took my hate to a whole  different level!!

"I have to be happy for her" I used to tell my self, he's the jerk not her. She's the sweetest creature on this earth. 

"A date?"

Five months have passed since Ta chan left. Cassidy was back working in the office, she was shocked at the news. She loved her too "how cant you love such an angelic person?". Cassidy knew Ta chan was a special person to me, so to make me feel better she invited me out for a movie with her boyfriend and an other friend. Well something happened and we ended up alone! not that I wished to be with her unsociable boyfriend really!. It was a nice night out we had time to talk over a coffee after the movie and get to know each other perhaps a little more "deeply".
A few days later she Invited me for a (b.b.q) on the beach, I accepted. It was a lovely summer evening that turned to an amazing night with music, food and good company.... excluding Cassidy's boyfriend!.   

From what I could see she wasn't very keen on him, (don't blame her!).

It was getting chilly and every one started cuddling up and covering in blankets, well except me!.
Decided to walk along the sea side on the soft sand as the waves delicately moved up and down the coast, the water was ice cold even-tough weather was warm it was still too cold to swim, it felt good, the sound of the sea distant music soft sand. The sky was covered with tiny crystals, sat down on the humid sand and sank my feet into it. I slowly sank down face up looking at  the sky, I  made my self comfortable took a deep breath and closed my eyes.

"What are you doing there all alone?" I opened my eyes and smiled at Cassidy, "stargazing!" I replied.
"Can I join?" she continued "yes sure!" she placed her self next to me as I sat up facing the sea.
We were both silent for a few minutes then I started drawing on the sand and she joined that "creative" moment with me we drew funny images and as we laughed we looked at each other and exchanged a soft kiss. Soon her boyfriend came looking for her...anyway it was getting late and the transport was soon coming to pick us up. She looked back at me  as she was dragged away near the others..

What I was doing? was I repeating the same mistake? destiny, destiny you call my name again to your presence...

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Confusion

She talked to one of the directors so may be she gets the job back ...and she did :)

We met after lunch decided to go for a coffee to talk things over, she looked devastated ...she was in pain I wasn't sure if it was the right idea to ask her anything cause it might have hurt her much more. She started talking as we sat for a coffee...

Went to Germany to meet my boyfriend (Josu) before heading back to Japan with him...I went to his apartment .. knocked on the door... he opened the door  wearing just a towel around his waist .. he was surprised to see me ..he knew I was coming ....so why that face?. I walked in, to my horror, I found a naked girl in bed half asleep....I couldn't speak ...I just froze at the sight of her there.

 ...She asked him who I was as tears ran  down my face.  The girl just grabbed her cloths as she realised what was going on she looked embarrassed and angry!. She walked pass by me whispered "I'm sorry" slapped Josu ..and vanished!

Josu sat on the edge of the bed with his elbows on his knees and head down....he started to talk really softly and with a broken voice.
-We have been apart from each other for such a long while ...I swear this was the first time happening .....It never happened before!
-That's not the point I replied!
-Tell me! Didn't you dated some other guy while you where away? is it possible? tell me ?  I felt something  was wrong as I visited you two months ago..

What I was suppose to say? If ...some guy did't walk in the restaurant that night we could have ended up doing the same...
So I just said nothing ....just cried. He stood up and wrapped his arms round me..I pushed him and left....even If I had nowhere to stay ...


Here I am again ...I could't go back home my mother would have suffered to much to this news!

I don't know what to do Hotei....I need time to think ....and I know this is the place I want to be.....

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Bitter-sweet memory

Fragments of memories

The kiss.....   

A few days later...
We had just finished a busy dinner,
all of us were tiered so one by one left. Only me and Ta chan remained talking....and having dinner at around midnight.

As we finished  we switched off the kitchen lights and slowly walked out trough the door that connected the kitchen to the restaurant. Ta chan was suddenly very silent and held my hand as she was uncomfortable to be in the dark. I pushed the swing door open and very cautious walked in as the lighting was very dim. I turned to Ta chan now  tightly holding my arm! I smiled at her ...she wrapped her other hand around my neck and I placed mine securely  around her waist....there was a "Don't know what to do moment" I squeezed her lightly and kissed her on her  upper lip..she replied with a more intense kiss...I placed both hands on her cheeks ....In
just seconds I felt that my knees were touching the floor. We kissed more and more intensely now holding each others hand tightly as we rolled over on the wooden floor suddenly we stopped!! our lips undone...I lifted my head and slowly opened my eyes we looked deeply in each other...tears ran down my face and dripped on her lip she smiled...I smiled back and kissed her more passionately the salty taste of tears gave a special meaning to that moment and made it more intense.  As she shed tears with me. I kissed her neck slowly down to her now uncovered shoulder...warm and smooth... delicate...and innocent.

My heart was pounding violently in my chest... I could feel a rush of boiling blood all over my body ...kissed her face and kissed every single tear ...none had to be waisted away...
Slowly kissed her neck down to her chest covering her whole body with kisses...I sat down and kissed her finger tips pressing them firmly to my lips slowly went up to her neck as we got closer and closer to feel each other ...her breathing became heavier and a light moan echoed in my ear "Aishiteru" 

"Is anyone there ? hello!!"
(No!! fuck no not now!!)

In a split second we went back to our feet! and tried to look like nothing was going on ....except for her messy hair.... her undone shirt....and my erection!!

Embarrassed  we swiftly got out of there and as we said goodnight...like nothing ever happened...after all she had to meet her boyfriend in the morning.....

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The discovery

Fragment of memories

As days passed I went back to work with my Japanese friends...there she was...

Taka and Rossana came too greet me and see how my hand was as they have heard of what have happened to me. "come, come, you must meet a new addition to our team" I couldn't believe my eyes it was her! the girl! suddenly that wired feeling came back to me. "No I must talk this time" 

-hi!! 

-ohaio "Ohaio? why did I say that? noooo!!  she will think I'm a fool ^^' ! " 

-Ohaio "she said back"

-Watashi wa Ta chan anatewa? "she continued"

-Hotei! nice meeting you !!

-Hotei? cute ^^ nice to meet you Hotei chan!

We talked for a few minutes and off! to get started with my work. Soon service was over and as usual we made lunch for us too. We all set down and ate in silence.One by one the others left Rossana needed her beauty sleep, Taka.....drinking I guess...Kazu and Tomo God knows what..

So it was us alone....in an empty restaurant...we started small talk

-Have you been long on the island?.

-No! just 3 weeks met Tomo and asked me if I needed a job I'm here to learn English so I must work to pay my flat!. 

-So do you plan to stay  long?.

-No, I don't think so Just summer I guess.

           (Just my luck!! :S) 

-I see ....your English is good so I'm sure you don't need much time.

-I love languages I can talk French, English, German, Portuguese and Japanese of course!.

-wow impressive Ta chan!!.

I invited her for coffee and she accepted... walked down the front to one of the many cafe's. Talked over a coffee or two for an hour or so. And so for the next month that happened every day...

We had become good friends indeed..

One day as we where talking she said "my I'm so exited my boyfriend called....he will come to meet up with  me next week!"

What a fool I've  been to believe....even if just for a moment...I should have thought she had a boyfriend...why I never bothered to ask?. She could have told me before....still I can feel the nice feeling inside and my heart didn't beat less ...anything but! 

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