Fragile

"Fragile..... we are so fragile I know its a bit (cliché) but we are like candles in the wind , sometimes we try to hold on to this life, fight for our life.....but at the end of the day  we are just so fragile..".

Look at the cliffs near the sea, big and strong but with each wave; sometimes gentle... sometimes furious it  eats them away. I don't want to be eaten away by the waves that are hitting my shores. I see life unfolding before my eyes and I feel helpless, I can't stop time...but I can live in this time, I can try and make something out of it...I say every day ..every extra day we get is a bonus so might as well not waist it and live,  make the most out of it...ohh yes the most ...not less. Learn from yesterdays mistakes it will prepare us for tomorrow's.

Pawns in the hand of destiny are we?. In this life we meet people of all sorts of shapes and sized every one made in its special way, everyone with his or her characteristic some good others less...
I have always tried to live good live and let live always have been my motto... but there were times that I did forget this idealism and turned, changed to someone I did not know...

That is what happened to me after the long  tiring battle for life..I could not take one more thing I blamed it on everything including myself  instead of fighting it back I surrendered to it... raised a white flag. What made me go on was her, the look in her eyes...the fact that no matter what happened she kept strong even tough she new nothing was going to be the same any more. Destiny blocked this road? screw it we go around it!.   I would not be the man I would be today if it was not for you, I many times don't show and many times ignore the call of you...many times you been patient even if you had the right and reason not to be. For that I am grateful. Even the choices I'v made I learnt not to regret try.... not to at least.


Dear life, 
When sometimes I'm alone I wonder how funny this life is...every time we need something or someone...and we make a call from deep within our soul...our call for help is heard.... a shoulder on the west..... a warm smile and a beating heart to the east ... strength from across the ocean .......and support  from the north...
                                                                              ...yours Hotei.


I'm not afraid to be fragile as its a sign I have feelings...