I adore you still

Swimming home 

by Evanescence 

Do you really want me?
                       No one's really loved me !
                                                       Calling.....
                                                                 Nothing can hold me!


There is no point in crying, after all I should be happy...If I loved her for real I should be happy that she's back with her love ...should I? so why I'm  not ?

Is it cause I'm human ...a greedy human ...if being a human is taking, ripping others form the life they have chosen the paths they decide to take  ...like we do with Butterflies  collecting them at the peak of there beauty just to Pearce them with a cold  needle of death. Then I don't want to be human ....

I feel like I have died....lost a peace  of me .. a vital part...
I look at my palm.... a scar .. but thinking about it, the scar is much more deeper then just a mark on my flesh, it goes deep as my heart!

I just need some time to mourn this pain away and return to a normality ....if destiny want me it will find me.
I be waiting in this deep sea as I try to swim back home....