I need time to think
I have to find the answers I have been looking for so long
"I will do it by comparing what it felt like with this song "
"breath no more"
It is no use to question over and over again your self isn't it? Or is it useful? that way you can see who you really are and what you really want.
Me, my self I could have never been here today writing and posting on this blog if I haven't done the path I'm sharing with you Every step of it was an important step in my life ..and never thought or imagined or what was going to happen to me...I realized then that I still didn't know my self as yet!. It is a mile stone, an important mark in my life, thanks to the help of a special friend.
Looking at your reflection in a broken mirror it is still you just in many little tiny pieces. Little fragments shattered ...as small as they seem to be they still hurt you as you can cut your self by simply touching them. "The fragments from the mirror are your feelings your emotions no mater how small they might be they can deeply hurt you".
Controlling emotion is no good eater...as we might just hide the feeling... It will be just a matter of time till it comes back up to the surface!! creating a fake world where I could hide...that is not me ..or is it?. I came to a point were I didn't recognize the monster I have become, may be it was to protect my fragile side! was I still the timid guy I used to be?
"If you had to choose which of me would you choose?"
It could be that I always was been told what or who to be? but the more they tell me who to be the more I want to show my real self, and now I want to be just me.....
"It is in use to question over and over again is not it your self? Or is it useful?"
ReplyDeleteI think, like everything in life, you need to find a balance.
I think it is worthwhile to ask ourselves, over and over. However, we must be aware that there are limits. We can not just question everything we do on a daily basis. If so, we don't do anything, right?
In my opinion, it worths every day, before we sleep, to take a moment to reflect on the day that is ending...
I agree with you. When we question ourselves, we know who we are and what we really want. But, we can't always do it alone. Sometimes we are so "blind" that we only see a way forward. And we have the idea, often wrong, that's the only way forward.
"The fragments from the mirrors are your feelings, your emotions, and how small the matter, they might deeply hurt you."
It's true. This happens when we don't appreciate the feelings and emotions with the importance they deserve. They are there, in the dark, waiting for one "clik". Then, they wake up with a major force and devastate us.
"Creating a world where fake I Could hide ... thats not me ... or is it?"
Creating a fake world is able to be very strong thinking...
You do not need to hide yourself.
You will discover yourself, which is very different.
You needed to make a trip to your self, where could you finally get to know you and accept you as you are. You still have a lot of shadows and fears to win. But, you have already defeated and conquered many shadows and fears! You have to feel proud of yourself! ^w^
"Was I still the timid guy I used to be?"
You continue to be the shy boy, I think, eheheh!
What really changed was the fact that now you get to know yourself better!
In your heart, you are the Hotei pure and genuine, the Hotei you are like...as ever! ^ ^
"If you HAD to choose, Which would you choose of me?"
This is a "sly" question.
Why did you have to leave in the hands of others the choice of something so important as is your sense of "self"? Your personality? You are special for being as you are. When we think of someone dear and caring, Hotei comes to our minds. If you let someone else to choose what you would be from now on, who knows what could happen? You could completely lose connection with your inner self, your personality ...
"But the more they tell me who to be, the more I want to show my real self, and now I want to be just me ..."
And thats the important!
You have to want and show others your true self! Is not you who are wrong, but those who wants you to be something you are not. Courage! Show your true self, without fear! ^ ^